Thursday, September 02, 2004

I started a meditation/prayer circle yesterday to attempt to reduce hurricane Frances to a tropical storm before it hits Florida.

I asked all of the magickal / spiritual people in my email box to send energy during a certain time, using their imaginations, focusing on the reducing the impact of this storm.

The first thing I did when I started my meditation last night was talk to the Mother. I told her that I understand that she has her ways. She is producing this hurricane for a reason. I then asked her to spare the people of Florida. I begged her. I told her that our country was suffering greatly right now, and asked that she spare us this added torment. I explained to her what I wanted to do, but conceded that Her will shall be done no matter what us wee mortals do.

I didn't get any objections.

I received return emails from a couple of folks. One was concerned that we were interfering in the Mother's will. My feeling is that a "Woman" can change her mind. Especially if She is asked nicely by one of her children. I'm hoping she can find another, less destructive way, of doing what she has to do in that region right now.

Today I'm pretty tired and kind of out of it. Magickal hangover. The thing is, I recruited people to do this for two more nights, so I have to suck it up and do it all again. Good stuff.

Onward and upward.

Tuesday, August 31, 2004

I'm on this crazy new diet. It's called, "Eat Less, Exercise More, and Don't Get on the Scale." We'll see how it works. Hmm.

Summer was crazy. I just had time to get used to the kid being here, and now he's back in Michigan. sigh. Now I'm trying to get used to a new normal.

Work really pissed me off last week. I had projected leave like 4 weeks in advance so I could have the day off before and the day of his leaving. All management was gone that week except one guy who was leaving the project, and he wouldn't assign anyone to help me with a deliverable, so I had to give up most of my time off. I worked half a day Wednesday and all of Thursday.

It was brutal. I was really angry and really sad and grieving all at the same time. Just an emotional wreck. Fortunately, I have some really good friends at work who were very understanding and supportive. That really helped the transition. Also, my love was stellar throughout, and I came through it much better this time - even though my time off got screwed.

I seem to be managing change much better, now, and it's all because I allow people to help me. I have good, supportive friends.

Life really is getting better all of the time.