I enjoy my primary job very much. I am very good at it.
Over the last decade, the industry has changed drastically. I think the industry itself has changed for the better with a focus on affordability.
I am not so crazy about management's adaptation to the change, however.
The focus is more on tracking how affordable we are (really?!) than streamlining processes, training people to be more efficient in their work, and - Isis forbid - cutting out some of the layers of management!
I feel that my ability to do a good job has been significantly hampered, and even when I come to them with presentations of my issue in a language they can understand, (i.e., $$$), I am still hampered from making positive change. NPI.
Face it, people. I'm fed up.
I have known for quite some time now that it is time for a change.
But to what?
I had a six year Air Force career in aircraft maintenance and it was great, but I knew when it was time to move on and I did. I had an idea of what I wanted to do when I got out - aerospace technical writing - and I did it. Eventually. I started out in software, moved on to utilities, and then to an API before I finally got into aerospace.
Even before my Air Force career, I always had a sense of direction. I was a driven teen who worked several jobs - sometimes all at once - to improve my situation. I had good jobs after high school and before joining the USAF, and they were all building blocks - stepping stones - to the next thing.
So, why do I feel so adrift this time?
Is it age? Am I set in my ways, now? Is it fear of failure? I honestly don't know.
I have never been directionless before. Ever. Never ever.
I feel like the answer is right in front of me, but there is an opaque veil obscuring it right now.